Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much you pray the armour of God or ask for the fruit of the spirit, there is an unseen arrow from the evil one that has already snuck into your being through the slimmest crack and is doing a very affective job to destroy your peace.
You pray, you cry, you can’t see or think straight!
Everyday we need to remember who we are, but on the days when we feel like we are drowning this is when we need to affirm who we are out loud.
Fearfully and wonderfully made
A daughter of the King
A child of God
After we have affirmed this, let’s sit back and see God work!
Patience is far from my strong point. The nuts of not wanting to wait. Wanting an end to all problems instantly I desire. I need to learn to rejoice in hope that my answer is already here. God’s timing is perfect, mine is normally hurry up please!
My hope is in you alone Jesus However hard I try Patience is not my thing Why can't I have it now I cry As doubt finds a way in Eyes get diverted My head starts to spin
Patience is what I need I pray Learning to be still Why is it so hard I grumble But is hardship really here Just a loss of creature comforts My self pity needs to go The Holy Spirit needs to enter in
With words of praise and worship Nuts of lies and impatience Run and disappear Hope And patience reign As the Spirit is allowed to soar God is able to step in Bringing miracles and glory galore
So whatever your waiting for Keep your eyes on God above Let Jesus take your hand As the Holy Spirit leads Let praise part from your lips Peace and joy surround And everything is well
So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows.
Matthew 10:31 NLT
I am feeling discouraged already. I desparately need the fruit of God’s joy and peace already. There is no real reason why. However I can not let this define my day and must stamp on this attitude now.
If you are feeling discouraged or disheartened today, pray for God’s peace and joy and see what happens.
Dear Jesus, Thank you that you love me, And that I am worth so much to you. So much you died for me, taking my place so that I can live. Discouragement is lingering, Trying to seep into my bones, My inner being and Spirit disturbed. This is not what you want, And I cannot let this define my day. Please keep your armour on me and fill me with your peace. Let this day be filled with testimonies of your love, Laughter and pure joy. I don't know what my day holds, But one thing I know is that Jesus, you will not leave my side. So through you spirit today. Keep me on your narrow path Radiating your light to all that I pass. Amen
I constantly seem to wish my life away to the weekend. Monday I normally label “make it through Monday”. But life shouldn’t be about making it through the day. It should be about living, embracing life and dropping the labels. My Monday today isn’t defined by making it through the day.
Dear Jesus, I have already woken up feeling like I just need to make it through Monday. This is not right and I don't want to wish my life away. The news is doom and gloom, My energy levels low. Before my day starts, let me take rest in you. Restore me,renew me, refresh me. Bless me with joy, Give me energy, passion, And a heart for you. Let my day be led by you. Help me to share your love today, Spread your joy and enjoy my day. Work,play and family time, Let it all be to glorify you. Amen.
I started this blog because I’m not perfect. As a Christian I know I will never be perfect. I am not here to judge or preach. I just want to encourage others letting you know that you are not alone. That we all struggle with emotions at times.
This week I have struggled. The thing with depression & anxiety is it sneaks up on you. You know you are loved, you trust God completely for every situation and know that he won’t let you down.
But as your standing on your rock, your firm foundation, fully clothed in your armour of God. Your eyes are focused on deflecting all arrows. The wind of destruction is gale force 7 around you, while swaying your eyes are still on the cross.
Depression and anxiety move in. They are sneaky, they know your already focusing on too much and sneak in under your the radar, while your balance is wobbling.
They start whispering in your ear. Making you compare yourself to others. Telling you, your no good. You turn off, try not to listen, then they go for the kill. They use someone else to hit the final blow. In my case this happened at work. Anger rises you lose your cool. You get upset you have failed again.
There’s too much noise in your head, static, lies, anxiety and stress. Depression then kicks the ball into the goal. 1- nil and your not on the winning side.
This is where I start to feel I’m going nuts, off kilter, unbalanced, useless and unhappy. I start to listen to the lies
Worship music is helping but it’s not breaking the chain. It’s sticking a plaster on the pain.
I pray for the spirit it seems so far. I need your fruit that covers this all. More love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control. It feels so far away.
In the UK we are still church online. Even though I am not the most social of people, I am starting to miss the church family connection in person, hugs and praying together. We do this online but it’s not quite the same.
I struggle through worship, the sermon I’m a mess. Mainly in tears, praying, repenting desperate for a touch.
The sermon is over, barely heard a word! (I will go back and listen) The thing about our church is though that we communicate during the service and words are read out at the end.
Someone sent in a word today, for someone that needs a difficult conversation at work and that is anxious about this. God’s favour is on you. This sounds like me. Only time will tell. However I lean into God and something happens, something that I have struggled with all week.
Peace is with me. God is with me. God is good. The battle may not be over but it is now going in the right direction. Peace is getting stronger and flowing.
May God help you find peace today.
Dear Jesus, You are our rock. The world seems crazy at the moment,like every thing is bonkers. Please stay close with your Sprit, and let your fruit grow within us. Let us be your beacon of light and listen only to you. Steady us when we wobble and stray and keep our eyes only on you. Amen.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.
It’s pretty soggy here today in sleepy Sussex.
The rain is gently tipping and tapping on the conservatory roof. There is the heavier sound of dripping, plop, plop, plopping running of the roof. My house using nature for the percussion section of the orchestra.
I love listening to the rain and like many have been feeling tired, weary and run down for a few weeks now.
The gorgeous hot weather we had in spring, in true British fashion has disappeared as it is officially summer. We are allowed outside but we must find the umbrella.
As the rain taps away and the colours of the garden come to life. I think about my inner being and how I need to be refreshed once more.
I am still close to Jesus. He isn’t far away. However at time like so many at times I become distracted by life and my soul can feel dry.
So in my busy day, of work I have to do. I will make time to sit, chill and ask to be refilled. For Jesus to come close and refresh and restore me once more by his Holy Spirit.
Dear Jesus, Fill and refresh us today with your Holy rain. Your Spirit that brings such fruit and fills us with joy. Let us be patient with one another in such difficult times. Let us feel your love and share it with others. Prune our souls so our gentleness, peace, kindness, faithfulness and self control is a witness to you. Let us lift and support each other through your example to us and no other as we live today for you. Amen.
People are tricky things. I understand why some people want to lock themselves away with their pets and avoid other people at all costs. People can be mean and nasty.
We need people in our lives. We need doctors and nurses to look after our health. People to collect our rubbish and unblock our drains. To service our boilers and cars. We need people for these things and so much more.
We need people we like to give us a hug and advice when life is tough. We need people to pray for us, support us and encourage us.
Sadly as people we don’t always agree, and let prejudices get in the way. It is hard to love one another when you want to slap them round the face. Sadly true emotions and feelings get in the way. Especially went you feel like your hitting your head against a wall.
God commands us to love one another. It’s not a love one another when your playing nice, or their hot, cute or being kind. It is a down right let’s get dirty love. We have to love one another when people people hurt us, challenge us and want to fight us in the trenches.
Loving people is far from easy. It’s something I am not always good at. But when I struggle to love others, I give it to God. Sometimes it is easier than other times. I ask God to bless them and remind myself how I kept Jesus nailed to the cross and ask for peace and vison to see the truth.
It may take time it isn’t always instantaneous. I may never see the truth but as peace falls, anger fades and clarity appears. God takes control.
God doesn’t give up on me, I can’t give up on people who I don’t agree with. God’s will always prevails